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Post by kissy on Dec 13, 2015 10:10:04 GMT -7
Sometimes I sit on my back patio with my coffee and pick my nose.
Yesterday I wore two different socks.
Often I put my underwear on inside out and when I notice I just leave them.
Sometimes I'll go out into the garage and listen to music really loud, my car stereo is amazing.
I like to be alone, a lot, but I also enjoy being around people, people that I know and I love. But even still, I like to be alone, a lot.
I talk to myself a lot. I mean, a lot.
I tend to overthink everything, and I freak myself out, so I usually just sit still thinking it will pass and all will be well.
I love my son so much but I often feel like I don't know how to show him effectively.
I love organization but most of the time I feel like I'm flailing. With everything.
Sometimes when I'm being ugly to other people in my head, I recognize that the things that bother me about them are actually things that bother me about myself.
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Post by ronin on Dec 14, 2015 8:00:45 GMT -7
The longer I'm an adult who talks to other adults, the more I realize that not a fucking one of us has our shit together. It's comforting.  You're awesome, Kissy. |
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Post by kissy on Dec 15, 2015 15:45:50 GMT -7
Thank ronin! It's interesting because I feel so alone sometimes in my idiosyncrasies but I know I can't possibly be alone. I mean, I may be the only one that picks my nose over coffee, but hey, it happens. I hate a flapper...
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Post by smokinghorse on Dec 15, 2015 16:31:45 GMT -7
I think nose picking is like masturbation. Nobody admits to it; everybody does it. Sometimes blowing (nose!) just doesn't get them all, and you have to go in after them. I actually get a real sense of satisfaction when I finally dislodge one of those really stubborn ones.
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Post by kissy on Dec 15, 2015 16:36:46 GMT -7
Exactly! And sometimes you do have to go in after them, blowing just doesn't work! I've tried, I swear!
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Post by KyLady on Dec 15, 2015 17:04:02 GMT -7
I pick my nose in the shower every time
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Post by kissy on Dec 15, 2015 17:06:09 GMT -7
I pick my nose in the shower every time  |
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Post by kissy on Dec 16, 2015 15:36:42 GMT -7
The other day I lost my car in the grocery store parking lot. I used to laugh at others when I noticed it. Karma.
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Post by kissy on Dec 16, 2015 15:40:01 GMT -7
For the last few days (ok, months) I've been hibernating. But really, the last few days I've definitely just stayed home and I've scolded myself for not being at all productive. Why? My house is clean, the laundry is done, the pets are fed and cared for--why is that not enough productivity? I know I need to get a job so I don't have to worry about money so much and so I can save and have some money upon retirement. I mean, for the last 15 years I assumed I had all that covered because I was married, and now I don't anymore. It's all just odd.
I remember after Ry was born and I would talk about being a stay at home mom and I'd have other women express to me how I needed to have an income 'just in case'. I never thought this would happen to me, and now here I am.
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Post by nomorewirehanger on Dec 16, 2015 17:51:44 GMT -7
I actually completely get it. I panicked in May when I packed that bag because...
I have nothing. I have no money. The car is in both our name's. I have no job. I have no childcare to GET a job.
I'm.literally and figuratively fucked if my parents don't help.
.humbling and horrifying.
Decided to get my shit together. Go back to work this year instead of next. At least some kind of part time office work. Something.
Get knocked up. Stuck at home.
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You're awesome, Kissy. 
