Post by nomorewirehanger on Dec 8, 2015 9:10:25 GMT -7
I was feeling very calm about all this. Until 4:30 am this morning. Had a nasty nightmare. And then couldn't get back to sleep until minutes before the alarm went off.
I'm not even worried about having a baby so much as I am negotiating the last three months of this pregnancy during the hands down BUSIEST time of year for us. I've already informed L & P there will be no spring soccer. Period. I just fucking can't.
Because G is doing spring softball (that's practice twice a week with batting practice on Wednesday a division game one night a week and tournament every weekend. And they are all day Friday night- Sunday night affairs if they win. ) B has spring track. Meets every weekend. His mom will help but I still will be busting butt to see if I can squeeze in watching his races between tourney games.
Hubs work schedule is going to amp up immensely because he's negotiating trying to get two to three weeks of vacation when she gets here because I won't be able to drive post surgery. They could (and likely will) say no to granting him his vacation at spring break because they assign by seniority and that is the second most desirable time of year after the holidays.
Which means he will have to take unpaid FMLA. Which means he's gonna be busting ass between Christmas and march so we can pay March and April bills plus the hospital.
Which goes back to flying solo super pregnant. I ended up on bedrest the last two weeks with G because I was killing myself during this time of year and was working. I can't so bed rest. It's simply not an option.
I just got hit with the... Enormity of it all this morning and had a full blown anxiety attack. I have no help. And even if I did I'd feel like a failure asking for it because they are my kids. Not anyone's responsibility to help us. Other people do this and I just... Don't see a way I don't end up a stressed out mess on bed rest because stress triggers my neuropathy and the whole point of taking the baby early is to. AVOID that.
I'm having a.... Full blown freak out today. I don't know if I can do this
?
I'm not even worried about having a baby so much as I am negotiating the last three months of this pregnancy during the hands down BUSIEST time of year for us. I've already informed L & P there will be no spring soccer. Period. I just fucking can't.
Because G is doing spring softball (that's practice twice a week with batting practice on Wednesday a division game one night a week and tournament every weekend. And they are all day Friday night- Sunday night affairs if they win. ) B has spring track. Meets every weekend. His mom will help but I still will be busting butt to see if I can squeeze in watching his races between tourney games.
Hubs work schedule is going to amp up immensely because he's negotiating trying to get two to three weeks of vacation when she gets here because I won't be able to drive post surgery. They could (and likely will) say no to granting him his vacation at spring break because they assign by seniority and that is the second most desirable time of year after the holidays.
Which means he will have to take unpaid FMLA. Which means he's gonna be busting ass between Christmas and march so we can pay March and April bills plus the hospital.
Which goes back to flying solo super pregnant. I ended up on bedrest the last two weeks with G because I was killing myself during this time of year and was working. I can't so bed rest. It's simply not an option.
I just got hit with the... Enormity of it all this morning and had a full blown anxiety attack. I have no help. And even if I did I'd feel like a failure asking for it because they are my kids. Not anyone's responsibility to help us. Other people do this and I just... Don't see a way I don't end up a stressed out mess on bed rest because stress triggers my neuropathy and the whole point of taking the baby early is to. AVOID that.
I'm having a.... Full blown freak out today. I don't know if I can do this
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